pwincessh's shelter

2010-08-30T02:43:00.000+08:00

You know, the only times I ever cry now, is when I know I'm close to losing a friend. Why must it be that I know when the threads of fate are fading away? I wish I'm blind to everything like this.

向日葵

2010-06-26T15:09:00.001+08:00

那就是我们爱过的证明

向日葵

2010-06-26T15:08:00.001+08:00

那就是我们爱过的证明

只要你快乐

2010-06-25T14:18:00.001+08:00

只要你快乐
失去爱情那又如何
我不傻
就算只剩下昨日的拥抱
付出什么都是值得
关于未来该如何期待
就让你自由自在
我会守着这份爱
等你回来打开
而我喜欢这样的你
而你喜欢拥有曾经
当我爱上你就愿意相信
只要你快乐
就算付出什么都是值得

2010-06-22T08:40:00.000+08:00

你的笑你的好脑海里一直在绕
我的手忘不了你手的温度
心碎了一地捡不回从前的心跳
身陷过去我无力逃跑

接受你的决定
是我一致的坚定

2010-06-22T02:44:00.001+08:00

I had been made to promise that I'd hold on to the next guy I fall in love with. But, who is to say if the guy sould be held on to.

安靜了

2010-06-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一加一努力就有结局
脸颊的泪还温热却没有人握我的手

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

在这下雨天，太阳出走了。

2010-06-08T03:30:00.000+08:00

"It is not our differences that divide us. It is our inability to recognize, accept, and celebrate those differences." -Audre Lorde

&I'll just share this quote. Pretty one ain't it?

2010-05-27T01:00:00.001+08:00

Chronicles of Vampire VS. Human Popsicle; Round 2, to be continued.

2010-05-20T04:25:00.002+08:00

窗外的天气就像是你多变的表情下雨了
雨陪我哭泣看不清我也不想看清
离开你我安静的抽离无人揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放晴

窗外的泪滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密让你去延续

2010-05-16T01:05:00.002+08:00

With just your smile
I felt like I could see tomorrow
If someone was ever hurt
You wouldn’t hesitate
To race to their side, I know it.

Saw this on facebook. That was what I wanted to be. Someone that I had needed, but never found nor saw. &there I was, hoping that no kids would have to experience what I had. But yet, my own son, I cannot save.

Because I do know.

2010-05-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

Would you know the feeling of true despair when all you can do is to see somebody you care for walking in the exact path that you did? You were once unguided, left to fend for your own. Yet you learnt. You grow in a positive way that probably nobody would have had done. You strive to guide the people trailing behind to learn the same way. But yet, how many would follow you? The pain that they'll suffer to be strong, the hurt they'll get to survive. Wouldn't it be easier to just fall&let the currents take you? Wouldn't be easier to pretend, to hide away, to throw yourself off? But sometimes, the softer way, isn't the best way. You think you learnt, but you ended not knowing a thing. You just haven't reach a point whereby you'd realise that you're but another innocent soul, trying to get yourself lost in the wide surface of trips&traps. Sometimes, there can't be second chance. Maybe, there'll come a time to listen to what others have to say. To open up&realise that people out there are as unfortunate as you. But, they chose to pick a different route to reach the ending. That perhaps, the harsh moments are essential for you to be get to where you want to be.

2010-05-14T12:06:00.001+08:00

I can give up any of what I have for what I want.
I can give up my all for what I want to have.
But when I don't have anything in the first place,
what's there to give up?
what's there to throw away?
what's there to exchange?
what's there, anyway?

连寂寞都笑我太堕落 but I'll just let go

2010-05-13T01:21:00.004+08:00

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰

The first time to actually be responsible for something, someone. The need to be responsible. Not entirely bad I'd say. The weight of having to be concerned about somebody else doesn't crush. In fact, it takes other weight off your shoulders.

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

Now I understand how mothers feel giving their children up. Perhaps, this is another lesson in disguise. But, I just can't cope. Maybe I should just let kids take care of themselves before dependancy seeps into our veins.

回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止说我再见
想象你在身边在完全失去之前

My decisions have always been worthwhile. May this be another one. The things that I'm not meant to hold on to. The memories I shouldn't have gotten. The feelings I needn't have experienced. Let another memory fade to nothingness.

这样唯美的镜头
是否只存在故事之中
在你身后时间把画面带走
时间把镜头带走
不假思索回忆不放手
哭过以后眼泪
还是不停的的流

我知道伤心不能改变什么

2010-05-12T12:13:00.003+08:00

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有无法控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难像切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点

因为哭过所以了解其中的痛
因为哭过所以知道其中的伤
因为哭过所以明白其中的苦
因为哭过所以不代表不再哭
因为泪才是在我生命里最真实的事

2010-05-11T23:15:00.001+08:00

放弃中就比继续来得容易
投降还是比坚持来得简单

简单爱

2010-05-11T11:27:00.002+08:00

当小孩很简单，
也很好玩，很轻松。
可，
我已很久没当过小孩了。
早已不是小孩的我，
还有权力抱怨自己的生活吗？
背负着大人的重担，
我开始回忆起很久以前，
那些曾经属于我童年的回忆。
但，
那些，也不过是个当大人的画面。

Right?

2010-05-10T13:53:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder how I cope with everything. All of these vibes. Everything I wished somebody would help me do. It boils down to emptiness. The loss, it's too dark. Maybe I just need to get used to the dark. Ditching the lamp, it's not tough. Right?

2010-05-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

我知道伤心不能改变什么
静静悄悄默默离开

if the rainbow should fall

2010-05-04T16:53:00.003+08:00

说着笑着的午后
钟声一直在停留
风声静静躺着在诱惑

我一个人在角落
没有你陪伴的我
连寂寞都笑我太堕落
广场旁边的烟囱
烟雾弥漫你面容
我悄悄背颂你的温柔

喝着加温后的啤酒
这样唯美的镜头
是否只存在故事之中

在你的身后时间把过去带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索回忆不放手
好想在跟你牵着手
牵着你给我的温柔
哭过以后眼泪
还是不停的流

我一个人在角落
没有你陪伴的我
连寂寞都笑我太堕落
广场旁边的烟囱
烟雾弥漫你面容
我悄悄背颂你的温柔

喝着加温后的啤酒
这样唯美的镜头
是否只存在故事之中

在你身后时间把画面带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索回忆不放手
好想在跟你牵着手
牵着曾有过的温柔
哭过以后眼泪
还是不停的的流

雨下过之后街角出现彩虹
泪流乾之后有彩虹

眼泪不能流过十二点

2010-05-01T12:59:00.002+08:00

难过
是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多
是心理起了作用

2010-04-30T01:19:00.000+08:00

我一路向北离开有你的季节
你说你好累已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

我一路向北离开有你的季节
方向盘周围回转着我的后悔
我加速超越却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧我伤你几回

停止狼狈就让错纯粹

爱情悬崖

2010-04-29T04:05:00.001+08:00

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人

Black Humour.

if you seek amy

2010-04-27T02:25:00.002+08:00

Forget not that you once remarked that we were the same. If that's true, then it's time for karma to bite you back. The very times that you dread so much, they seem to be back again not? It's not a turn in life, it's merely something that awaited unfolding. It still seems silly that I regard you as a friend. But yet, at the same time, I have already put it all down. You have come between us, &now, I'll be there to witness the events.

Ironically, miss you much. The old you actually.

to my life&beyond

2010-04-26T11:31:00.003+08:00

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

It feels different everywhere, with everyone. But the change is constantly the drag. As time goes by, you find yourself throwing at the change instead. Not because you welcome it. But because, it's the only comfort you can find in this ever-changing life. The only constant in the ever ongoing changes. There can't be anything to get tired of. There's just the inability of being accustomed to something, knowing that it'll someday pass you right by.

the LEGACY

2010-04-17T02:47:00.001+08:00

LEGACY`08, the one legacy I know, the one legacy I hold true to. The one legacy, worth me following through. Promise made, promise fulfilled. Time to take the backseat now.

yuki no hana

2010-02-21T03:42:00.005+08:00

A man’s shadow lines the pavement
You walk in the twilight
Always holding my hand
If I’m by your side, I might not have to cry

The winds becomes cold
And I can smell winter
Gradually, in this city
the seasons will change as you come close to them

This year, the first snowflowers bloom
as we draw closer
As I look upon this time
the hapiness overflows in me
If we depend on each other’s love, we’re not weak
I simply, love you
These thoughts are straight from the heart

Whatever happens, as long as I’m with you;
I get the feeling that I can overcome anything
I know we can have this kind of life forever
So I pray that it will continue like this

The wind sways the window
and at night I wake up shivvering
I’ll chance any sadness
by putting a smile on my face

The snowflowers flutter down
outside the window
Though I don’t know why they stop falling
we will dye this city
We may think
“for who’s sake are we doing this?”
But we know it’s because we know love

If you ever get lost
I’ll become a star, and light your path
At night, when you smile, or get wet with tears
I’ll be by your side, always and forever

This year, the first snowflowers bloom
as we draw closer
As I look upon this time
the hapiness overflows in me
If we depend on each other’s love, we’re not weak
It’s simple, I just want to be
with you like this forever
So I can feel your gentleness

Pure white snowflowers,
pilling up in this city
In our hearts, we quickly draw our feels,
I’ll be with you forever, from this moment on

2010-02-05T02:40:00.001+08:00

All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
They've got all the right moves in all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down

Just paint the picture of a perfect place
They've got it better than what anyone's told you
They'll be the King of Hearts, and you're the Queen of Spades
And we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers

I know we've got it good
But they've got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day
I know things are looking up
But soon they'll take us down
before anybody's knowing our name.

They've got all the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
We've got all the right moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down

Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear
And the sound you like
Are we just sinking in an ocean of faces?

It can be possible that rain can fall,
Only when it's over our heads
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away
Over the world is death.

They've got,
They've got all the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
We've got all the right moves and and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down

They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down

It doesn't matter what you see.
I know i could never be
Someone that looks like you.
It doesn't matter what you say
I know i could never face
someone that could sound like you.

All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
We've got all the right moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down

All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
We've got all the right moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down

They said, everybody knows everybody knows where we're going
Yeah we're going down
They said, everybody knows everybody knows where we're going
Yeah we're going down

Yeah we're going down
Yeah we're going down

All the right moves, hey
Yeah, we're going down
All the right moves, hey
Yeah, we're going down

This time, it back to actually doing things all over again. Cut me some slack please.

Morgiegie has immortal.

2010-01-21T02:07:00.002+08:00

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend,
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah!

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

2010-01-15T10:50:00.002+08:00

Step 1: Think thoroughly.
Step 2: Put down.
Step 3: Walk away.
Step 4: Don't turn back.
Step 5: Viola! You've succeeded in leaving!

How do you retire from a life of fighting. When it's become part of your life, part of you. How can you stop fighting everybody else&start to actually learn to put things aside to protect. It just isn't rigt the fight everything that you want to protect, but what happenes when life put you in such a situation? Would you fight life instead? Fight what you want to protect, or fight both? I know what my answer was, is&always will be. I've been moving so fast, that now I can't just stop for anything in the world without stumbling. But yet, things go haywire&tumble. For the person who hold up every piece of sky, what'll happen if the very own piece falls&nobody's there to prop it back up? Crash&Burn.

we were always meant to say goodbye.

2010-01-15T10:23:00.002+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
------------------------------------------------------

Time and time again, I always forcefully close the doors behind me. Every single time I thought I had enough of doing that and that I want to keep it open, the door closes on its own. After all these years, I feel ever so alone once again. EVerywhere I look, there are only closed doors left. The very ones that I've closed.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go

如果没有。。。

2010-01-15T00:52:00.002+08:00

知己知彼，百战百胜。

Is that all friendships really boils down too?
The first time, I took it to be a mistake.
The second time, I took it to be a coincidence.
The third time, I can't take it to be anything else anymore.

So, let's just save our energy&surrender to this fact.

x1000000000000000000000000000000000000

2010-01-14T12:53:00.001+08:00

You know the feeling of being gg-fied times ten gazillion? No, too bad. It's time to learn how that feel already!

1,2,3

2010-01-14T04:17:00.003+08:00

~~Dependence~~
~~Reliance~~
~~Niceties~~
~~Trust~~

Alright, let's start all over again.

2010-01-13T00:35:00.001+08:00

How did I get into a situation whereby I forget that karma is my one true best friend?

I yearn for that camera that my dad has!

愛在記憶中找你

2010-01-11T02:29:00.003+08:00

Like what Morgan said, it's been a year. It's been full of ups&downs, probably more downs for me. Like many out there, we'd probably try to pile ourselves up with extreme workload, just to forget about the time, to take our minds off of issues which we are so reluctant to deal with. The heartaches, the pain, the absence, the missings, they all contribute to the lethargic feel that we get on days at no end.

The '^^V' emoticon, the promise of lessons on cycling, the naggings, the concerns of my smileless face. After all these days, I can still hear the words resonating loud&clear at my ears. &myself, ever ready to retort something back at the words, but only to find an empty space&the sudden realisation that all is none.

Sometimes, I even felt that, I should've hated you more. Then perhaps, when you left us, I won't feel as much. But I guess, it wasn't possible. &it'll never be. It's as though somebody left a mark deeply etched into our hearts, right into our very souls. We were the three musketeers&that's what we'll always be.

No doubt we've loved&lost, but this time, this feeling won't be replaced, nor forgotten. It hangs everywhere, there, in front of our eyes, reminding us constantly of the hurt we'd been through.

2010-01-10T02:46:00.000+08:00

sometimes, the simplest way to light up a person's life, is to just smile=)

記得忘記; 林峰

2010-01-07T02:49:00.005+08:00

NO SHIT. I HAVE A BAD COUGH, A FLU, AN UNDERLYING FEVER&AN IRRITATING HEADACHE. I'M SICK ALRIGHT. GIVE ME A BREAK.

IT'S BAD ENOUGH I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH YOUR PATHETIC ATTITUDE THIS EVENING, NOT TO MENTION THE DAMNED BLACK FACES. DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE SITUATION RIGHT FROM THE START AND NOT LET IT ESCALATE TO CHAOS. SERIOUSLY, IF YOU'RE RETARDED, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

NOT HELPING MUCH WHEN ALL I WANTED WAS A LONG BUS-RIDE HOME SO THAT I COULD WELL SLEEP MY ASS OFF. USELESS-BUS-WITH-SINGLE-DIGIT-SEATS VISITED US. WIERD MUSIC DIDN'T MAKE MY HEADACHE CLEAR.

YESTERDAY WAS NO RIGHT WHICH DRAGGED ON TO THE WEE HOURS OF TODAY AFTER MY TABOO-LISTED PHONE-RINGING-ON-BUS-RIDE INCIDENT HAPPENED. NO, I DON'T LIKE PHONECALLS, THOUGH I LOVE MY RINGTONE. BUT NOT WHEN I'M HAVING AN UNDERLYING HEADACHE. IT'S LIKE AN ACTIVE VOLCANO WAITING TO ERUPT.

NO, I CAN'T GO TO SLEEP RIGHT NOW. BRAIN IS TOO WORKED UP. BACK IS ALL SCREWED UP. KNEE GOT QUITE BUSTED. &NO, YOU WON'T GET WHAT I MEAN, YOU WON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL. GO TRY DYING, MAYBE YOU'LL A TEENY BIT CLOSER.

Shit being said, shit being done, shit is for the stay. Mark my words, your lives are not going in the correct way. They won't, and I make it damnhell right. Now you know why humans need to die. They destroy earth too quickly. But, it's too bad that the wrong people always get hit.

new listings

2010-01-03T04:24:00.004+08:00

1. papaya soap
2. white dress
3. black dress
4. tea tree oil cleansing thing
5. naraya bag
6. white shirt

That shall be my shopping for the next six months. Good job in keeping it, seriously. Not to mention, I really need to stop buying stuffs, like at all.

Next up, Valentine's! There goes my resolution&morale!

2010-01-02T02:34:00.000+08:00

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

不如，我还是不去再等待了吧

2009-12-28T03:49:00.001+08:00

You know,

It's never about the things that you say to others.

Instead, it's the things that you fail to say to others that matters more.

2009-12-21T04:21:00.001+08:00

Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake
'Cause love can help me know my name

Well I try to say there's nothing wrong
But inside I felt me lying all along
But the message here was plain to see
Believe me

drink&drive? yes.

2009-12-02T02:31:00.002+08:00

December, the busiest month in my life. With all that christmas gifts, how am I going to finish shopping? Time to start planning what to do with my time already.

Christmas eve: steamboat?/drinking?
Christmas night: drinking?/supper?
New Year's eve : definitely drinking.
Every other day: WORK!
Rest days : SHOP!

Great, this year is really screwed. Let's hope I don't sprout nonsense after the stroke of midnight on New Year's Day.

2009-11-24T02:45:00.001+08:00

; the LAST promise

because I know

2009-11-23T01:50:00.001+08:00

First off, I cant keep a promise
I'm no one to count on at all
Add on that I'm a coward
Too scared to return your call

But you don't care
You keep sticking around
While I'm actin a clown
You're bigger
Than me

Cuz you're still here
Your feet stuck to the ground
Despite how silly it sounds
You're bigger
Than me

It's known that I'm a liar
Often I'm blacker than white
Add on my uncanny ego
No ones as humbled than I

But you don't care
You keep sticking around
While I'm actin a clown
You're bigger
Than me

Cuz you're still here
Your feet stuck to the ground

Despite how silly it sounds
You're bigger
Than me

All the messed up things I do
Yeah I swear I'll make them up to you
Before you're go and have enough
Just let me make it better
Ill try and make them up
Ill try and make them up to you
Oh yeah
(I'll make them up to you oh yeah)

But you don't care
You keep sticking around
While I'm actin a clown
You're bigger
Than me
Cuz you're still here
Your feet stuck to the ground
Despite how silly it sounds
You're bigger
Than me
Just bigger
Than me

谁又会及我伤悲

2009-11-19T03:47:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,

I wonder,

What.

Exactly am I?

如果可以恨你
全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你
还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麽伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

you.

2009-11-16T02:27:00.004+08:00

Because I'm spoilt rotten.
I want you.
Only you.

I'm not going to give you away.
Coz you found me.
That's WHY!

P.s.: I really don't like weddings.

2009-11-12T12:27:00.001+08:00

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please believe in me

If I could change the story's ending to me&you

it's not me.

2009-11-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

--------------------------------------

Just because Ying Li doesn't cannot fail nor fall.
Just because Ying Li cannot doesn't cry.
It doesn't mean that Ying Li wouldn't ever.

I really feel that Ying Li, is just a puppet. Prove me wrong? I think not.

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

i wasn't meant to walk this world without you

2009-11-05T01:43:00.003+08:00

I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might

Maybe, love maybe

-------------------------------------------------

But, maybe, it's just another thing that's too good to be true.

I'm tired, it's like I've lost too much of my life just trying to make my life easier to bear. I know that I need you, but you're just not there. Once, you were, but I was too stupid to realise that I could have a chance at something good for a change. And now, it'll never come back to me again. Without the pillars in my life, I can see it tumbling, crumbling, slowly into the dark nothingness. What's left, is what I'm still holding on to. What's left, is what is to be destroyed in time to come.

no way.

2009-11-03T01:22:00.002+08:00

I failed to remember that for every good thing that happened to me, I need to give something back in return. But, why does it always have to clash with this issue? It happened before&I thought that it's for me when the second time appeared. Still, I had to give it up for another thing else.

Question of the day, should I be selfish or not? On a second thought, perhaps it's not going to matter is I should be selfish. Maybe, it's a way to tell me to give it up entirely. Including my pursuit to simple, pure happiness. My life, is not meant to be a happy one, not since the day I came to Earth.

once upon

2009-10-30T01:31:00.002+08:00

I'm afraid that it'll be me.

Yet,

I'm fear even more that I'm not the one.

Just how is this possible?

What if, you live, only for the sake of dying?
And with every breath you take, somebody else loses one.
&to let you live, you've got to let another go.
This is such NOT a good year. Seriously.

All the tears that I had cried&cried

Seemed like they'd never end

&I, never believed fairytales came true

But now I know that they really do

Now that I found you&now that I'm here with you

Just look at the sunshine in you

Show me a world I'd never seen

i woke up&fell into this dream

straight through my heart

2009-10-27T02:38:00.002+08:00

In the heart of the night
Where it's dark in the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor, oh, oh

I looked down and my shirts turning red
I'm spinning around felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in my ear like I missed you
Want you tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me I just can't believe it, oh

No I can't resist and I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down
(my heart)
Soldier down
(my heart)

Thought I moved more than on
Thought I could fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I can't leave her alone, oh oh

Hear the sound of a love so loud
I just can't, I just can't ignore this feeling
Said she misses me and she wants me
Wants me tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me I just can't believe it, oh

No I can't resist and I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down
(my heart)
Soldier down
(my heart)

In the heart of the night
When it's dark in the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me I just can't believe it, oh

No I can't resist and I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down
(my heart)
Soldier down
(my heart)

The next time

2009-10-14T03:23:00.001+08:00

Is when you start to regret.
Is when your heart starts to break.
Is when you want to turn back time.
Is when you wished things don't change.
Is when you want everything to remain.
Is when you try to forget everything.
Is when you can't let go.

Is when, you wish you had done something else back then instead.
&it'll probably be the next time we see each other again. That's if it ever happens, again.

2009-09-18T13:00:00.001+08:00

Biochemistry is my bane. Seriously.

How do you not look back?

2009-09-13T03:53:00.001+08:00

Tonight I'm falling&I can't get up, I need your loving hands to come&pick me up. &every night I miss you, I can just look up&know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you tonight.

2009-09-04T09:03:00.001+08:00

Yeps,test test!

2009-08-29T12:46:00.000+08:00

Because leaving is all too easy,
that's why we shouldn't depend.

reality vs. realistic

2009-08-27T01:15:00.002+08:00

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you lost your way

And what if my chances were already gone?
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets?
Don't know where the future's headed
But nothing's gonna bring me down

I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I've risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe

Yeah! There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

But what if, you climbed too hard to reach a pit-stop that now you'er unable to climb anymore to reach that summit you've wanting to?
But, what if, you no longer see why? When the reason for everything is lost.
&what if, everything is really a dream? The good, the bad, the long-gone. Would you wish you had slept in?
&what if, all that you've worked for amounts to nothing in the end? How would it feel like to feel lost&all out?

Still, it only make sense to move on. Or so everybody preaches. Just how down&out has anybody been? Just where, is the breaking point for everybody?
So, is it still true that we'll all get over our pains? Get through life? Get through our miserable nagging thoughts?

21 guns

2009-08-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

2009-08-23T03:41:00.002+08:00

I'll really cross my toes&fingers twice over, thrice over even. Just to gather enough luck to hope that my wish comes true. The one that hopes that the person you're talking about on your blog isn't me. Like seriously.

Life, is too short to regret. Yet, it's too long for you to look back&still feel light-hearted enough to carry on. Perhaps that's why I'd rather choose to forget.

yah

2009-08-23T03:30:00.002+08:00

Yeah, blogs are scary places. Admit it.

A song's stuck in my head. Dang!

Anyway, it's not me, it's not me, it's not me, it's not me. It can't be me, it really cannot be me.

2009-06-25T01:14:00.001+08:00

what if...

i told you that i missed you?
i told you that i still love you?
i told you that i wish you were still here with me?

i think perhaps, you wouldn't even see this.
so what's the point?

今生注定

2009-06-22T20:48:00.001+08:00

现在你心里想什么
能不能就写在眼眸
告诉我

在这沉默的片刻
让我们用心灵交流
如果爱情烦恼真的太多
或许心事都交给我

为你担忧对我来说也是快乐
不管有多少真心
多少爱被错过
有了你我已经别无所求
用半生紧紧享受换取承诺
什么话都不必再说

哦

总以为曾经付出
曾被爱伤害过
这世上只有我对爱执著
直到我慢慢感受
你的温柔
才了解

今生注定与你相守
现在你心里想什么
能不能就写在眼眸
告诉我

在这沉默的片刻
让我们用心灵交流
如果爱情烦恼真的太多
或许心事都交给我

为你担忧对我来说也是快乐
不管有多少真心
多少爱被错过
有了你我已经别无所求
用半生紧紧享受

换取承诺
什么话都不必再说
总以为曾经付出
曾被爱伤害过
这世上只有我对爱执著
直到我慢慢感受

你的温柔才了解
今生注定与你相守

哦

不管有多少真心
多少爱被错过
有了你我已经别无所求
用半生紧紧享受换取承诺
什么话都不必再说

总以为曾经付出
曾被爱伤害过
这世上只有我对爱执著
直到我慢慢感受

你的温柔才了解
今生注定与你相守
直到我慢慢感受

你的温柔才了解
今生注定与你相守

2009-06-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

快樂什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你緊緊抱著
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我變成回憶最怕我太不争氣
頑固的賴在空氣霸佔你心裡每一寸空隙
要讓依然愛我的你痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平請你盡力把我忘記

&maybe that's the way it's meant to be instead

2009-06-18T02:15:00.001+08:00

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一刻我们有缘在见
你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

the days long gone with the wind...

2009-06-07T01:05:00.003+08:00

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me

&sometimes you think back, you seem to be unable to remember the times, the days, the situations, the everyday that you had. What you hold left in your hands are but memories of the feelings that you experienced. Between chooing to forget, &letting it pass, which is the better option? Whichever, is alright, for long-gone is never coming around again.

2009-06-02T22:27:00.005+08:00

你常常说我很完美
没人能取代我给的一切
我就以为我努力更完美
我们就会永远
完美并不美我们多虚伪
你让我的好变成一种罪
完美并不美当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是不完美
後来你说我太完美
值得更好的陪在我身边
你不是我你怎么能体会
你有多么珍贵
我的完美成了罪

最后，其实你一点也都没了解我。

2009-05-09T01:46:00.002+08:00

Really, the idiots behind Maplestory need to go for re-course. If they can't bloody hell keep people from lagging for no good reasons, then they really fail at efficiency. Come on, whoever play games & lag for 5mins every 2 seconds please? For goodness sake, i bet this is why people who left Maplestory, NEVER want to go back into that junk again. What the hell, what has gotten into me to want to go back in there again, seriously.

maybe

2009-05-02T03:35:00.002+08:00

I wonder, what it's like to live it worthwhile
to live life to the fullest
to live it all out

Maybe that's why.

existance

2009-04-29T03:34:00.001+08:00

We must not shed tears
That is the defeat of the body by the heart
Because, for us, this thing called "the heart" can become nothing less than proof that one's existance is superfluous

I'm sorry for the things that I didn't do

2009-04-09T19:06:00.004+08:00

I guess that's the end of it.

I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise

I'm sorry I let problems pile up

I'm sorry I gave up at the peak

I'm sorry I wasn't there to help

I'm sorry I didn't do my best

I'm sorry I didn't go out of my way

Maybe you trusted us too much

that's why you didn't come

Or maybe, you saw it coming

that's why you didn't want to...

说好的幸福呢

2009-04-04T20:24:00.001+08:00

开心与不开心一一细数着你在不舍
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了

2009-04-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

时间过了走了
怎么了你累了
爱淡了梦远了
放手了后悔了

perfection shattered

2009-03-25T22:25:00.002+08:00

Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa, hmm
Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa

Did I wake you, were you sleepin',
were you still in my bed?
Or isn't, I may, keepin' you up instead?
Oh baby, are you feelin' guilty for what you did
If you think you're hurtin',
you ain't seen nothin' yet

Was it really worth it?
Was she everything, that you were looking for?
(Feel like a man)
I hope you know that, you can't come back
Cause all we had, is broken like shattered glass

You're gonna see me, in your dreams tonight
My face is gonna haunt you all the time
I promise that you gonna want me back
When you broke us apart, like shattered glass
(Glass, glass, glass)

Are you having trouble focusin' throught the day?
Do you find yourself, still callin' my name?
Do you wish you could be on-time and take it back?
I bet you realize, she ain't half the woman I am

Was it really worth it?
Was she everything, that you were looking for?
(Feel like a man)
I hope you know that, you can't came back
Cause all we had, is broken like shattered glass

You're gonna see me, in your dreams tonight
My face is gonna haunt you all the time
I promise that you gonna want me back
When you broke us apart, like shattered glass

Glass, glass, glass, glass
(Gla-gla-gla)
Glass (ee-ee-ee)
Glass, glass, glass

Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa, hmm
Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa

只因为你总说'everything will be okay'

2009-03-21T12:26:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wish this is a beautiful dream
That I wouldn't have to wake up from ever

Yet, I wish this ia not a dream
For dreams will turn into a nightmare

But between dreams&reality
Neither is true or perceived
Both, are just as frightening
ain't it?

2009-03-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

What happens when hopes flow away
What happens when encouragements sound empty
What happens when you stand left

Will it all matter only in the end?
or
Will it never matter at all?

Sometimes, I just can't differentiate the difference
or was it just my perception all the while

只因为你总说 Everything Will Be okay

2009-03-20T10:00:00.001+08:00

变色的生活任性的挑拨
疯狂的冒住了头
单方的守侯试探的温柔
还是少了点什么
遥远两端爱挂在天空飞
风停了也无所谓
只因为你总说 Everything wiill be okay

准备好了 three two one
I'm always online
和你one to one
爱开始扩散
我们连结了穿越天空银河 oh~~
开始倒数 three two one
删除我的孤单
more and more尽是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了
I'm always online

变色的生活任性的挑拨
疯狂的冒出了头
单方的守侯试探的温柔
却还是少了点什么
遥远两端爱挂在天空飞
风停了也无所谓
只因为你总说 Everything Will Be okay

我准备好了 three two one
I'm always online
和你one to one
爱开始扩散
我们连结了穿越天空银河 oh~~
开始倒数 three two one
删除我的孤单
more and more尽是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了
I'm always online

准备好了 three two one
I'm always online
和你one to one
爱开始扩散
我们连结了穿越天空银河 oh~~
开始倒数 three two one
删除我的孤单
more and more尽是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了
I'm always online

爱亮了爱笑了
I'm always online

hmms...

2009-03-20T02:53:00.002+08:00

I wonder,

what is it that makes me cry in the middle of the night.
what is it that makes me cry all of a sudden.
what is it that makes me smile at random.
what is it that makes me smile at nothing.
what it is that makes me smile when i can't.
what is it that makes me feel excited for everyday.
what is it that makes me dread the day's end.
what is it that makes me happy&sad at the same time.
what is it that makes me feel so lost.

Sometimes, I think I know

the answer.
the question.
the thoughts.
the random things.
the events.
the way everything happens.
the life I'm living.

But, I've failed to find what I want in life.
But, I've found something to help me.

Someone, for that matter.
And I'm glad I did it early.

=D

2009-03-04T17:54:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Because you live, I live

2009-02-27T23:28:00.003+08:00

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
~~It's the end of the world in my mind~~
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, I made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl (you live)
Because you live
My world
My world
Has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live,
I live,
I live

i feel like a hero...=/

2009-02-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lock down
And then you turned me around
And I feel like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I feel like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I feel just like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

hmmsss.....

2009-02-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

&sometimes I wonder

we'll see it when we do

2009-02-21T12:08:00.003+08:00

The past two weeks has been an absolute whirlpool of emotions. A mental photo album which I'll have to keep forever. Everyday is filled with happy&sad times. Times of strength&weakness. These are days when everyday is a new beginning, litreally a day of unknown.

Yet, the five days that stuck out prominently, are the days which I'll hold dear to me. It's these five days, which I'd been proven that I can be strong enough to hold on. And now, my life has changed, and a brand new book of adventure is ready to be written!

p.s.: I really dislike Adobe =(

love story :)

2009-02-19T12:54:00.001+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony of summer air

See the lights,
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said:

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they know
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said:

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes, oh,

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town I said:

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knealt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said:

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause we were both young when I first saw you

as our hearts start to heal...

2009-02-16T03:51:00.002+08:00

I miss you Jordan.
We all do.
That's why, we have to let you go
And move on.

From now on,
You have to get used to the new environment.
You need to adapt to not having us around,
Just like we need to too.

This time,
It'll be your turn to wait.
Your turn to take car of us.
Your turn to hope for us.

Just like we had great joy knowing you,
We suffered great grief losing you.
And with that, we will learn a great lesson.
From you, just like always.

Be strong, Jordan.
Stay strong and cheerful.
And we would follow suit.
For we know it's what you would want.

With that,
I bring a closure to this.
Our friendship wouldn't end.
Just like our conversation, it'll continue.

We will dry our tears,
And trudge forth with what you impart in us.
And this time, all of us will get stronger,
So we can be on par with you.

We all love you Jordan.
So, don't forget about us.
Help us along the way,
And be at peace.

2009-02-15T09:42:00.002+08:00

Jordan, you cheated all of us. We all had known you to be the strongest amongst all of us. And yet, you left us all just like that. It's so not fair! You promised so many of us so many things. And what about our unfinished conversation?

come back..please?

2009-02-14T01:47:00.003+08:00

Valentines' Day today, the fourth day since anybody last saw Jordan. Am going to invade NUH tomorrwow morning again. Seriously, now, I can't bring myself to go to NUH again. Looking at Jordan, all I could think of was that he's lying there, not awake. All I could do in front of him was to cry&cry. All I could say was nothing at all. People have been coming all over to visit him, pray for him, talk to him. Paper cranes are being made everyday, alongside stars&hearts. And so, I shall make roses. Jordan, I remembered that you wanted to learn how to fold roses. I'll teach you when you wake up alright? And then you can complain that my roses are ugly and all. Jordan, It's not funny anymore, you're making us all anxious for you to wake up now. It's really not the time to be lazy, what's with exams, D&D, Trial Camp and even FOC coming up all so soon! We admit it okay, that we need you, that we all want you back, like really badly!

And if you have forgotten, Soshi's birthday is coming up real soon already. Let's all celebrate his birthday together alright? And you still haven paid up for D&D even though you told me that you would last week. Besides all these, have you forgotten that I told you that we'll continue the conversation that we had at the bus-stop at your house? There's still so much you want to tell me, that I know. And now, I'm here waiting for you to continue what you want to tell me. Are you really going to ditch your workload for Trial Camp and FOC on to all of us? Stop being lazy and wake up already yah?

I'll pwn you in making roses, in running around school, in enduring 5 sleepless days. Why don't you wake up and tell me that you'll make me self-pwn? And guess what. Now I'm on better terms with your clique already. Isn't that your aim of that conversation that day? It had taken me long to remember the contents you know? Furthermore, you haven't told me what logistics you need for Trial Camp. I'm still waiting for an answer.

Come on, so many people have cried for you for the past 4 days that it pains me to see them. Don't you feel heartbroken too that so many people have to tear for you? Stop being stubborn and come back already okay? Please?

Because you live

2009-02-12T05:04:00.003+08:00

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

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Because of one person's existance, the mass can feel alive.
Because of the mass' lives, the one person can feel appreciated.
What else would it take, for him to know?
To know that we're all supporting him?

For Jordan.The Cranes

2009-02-12T04:33:00.003+08:00

A week has passed. A new day has arrived. The sun will be up soon. We'll find a brand new world. But a world without you, is not a world we want to be in.

Second night in running that I haven't slept. Third day in running that I have came to the hospital. I feel tired, but where can I rest my soul? Not with one of my good friends in SICU. Shi Li is currently sleeping beside me. Dad is sleeping in the Visitors' lounge and Mum is inside with Jordan. Folding paper cranes had always been the most frustrating job that I can ever do. Not because I lack the patience, but because of the fact that I have sweaty palms. Either that or super dry&uncomfortable hands to work with. But the numerous cranes I'm doing now, all hold a hope. A hope that will in turn represent each&every hope that all of us possess. Staying over in the hospital in company of ShiLi, is a choice I made. The wait in the dark solitude of my own room is far too overwhelming, as I had experienced the night before. The guilt, the feeling of loss, the feeling of helplessness , they knocked on my conscience one by one. Being the one who spreads all the news, I can't help feeling bad, for I'll have to be the one to break everything to everybody.
Tears had gone far. But I believe, a new batch will start again. However, for all of us, when the sun rises up again, it'll be yet another day, of waiting, of anxiety. Lord, we desperately need your strength to help us pull through it all. Lord, if for all my tears you can bring strength to each&everyone of us waiting for Jordan to wake up, please do take them all. We wish for nothing more than for him to wake up and be okay.

0830: Nerve Stimulus test
Donors can make their way down to NUH to donate blood&platelets!
1000-1100: Send for major operation

Will update again when the morning comes. Currently still folding paper cranes. And also asking for blood donors&platelet donors!

torn&hurt

2009-02-04T02:52:00.002+08:00

A part of me wants to leave you alone.
A part of me wants for you to come home.
A part of me says I'm living a lie.
(And I'm better off without you.)
A part of me says to think it through.
A part of me says I'm over you.
A part of me wants to say goodbye.
A part of me is asking why...

A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And everytime I think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
And you got me just torn.

Torn in between the two. (Oh yeah)
'cause I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (I really want to be with you)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
And you got me just torn in between the two. (In between the two)
'cause I really wanna be with you. (Be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (You alone)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.

There were no issues when we started out.
It was cool.
It was everything that love's about.
But something happened.
Plus I'm feeling so burnt out.
('cause I can't understand you now.) Now oh
(I just can't understand you now.)
A part of me says it's all my fault.
A part of me says "he ain't what you want."
A part of me says to get my bags.
A part of me says I can't do that.

A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And everytime I think that it's over and done you make me fall back in love.
You got me just torn.

Torn in between the two. (Between the two)
'cause I really wanna be with you. (Be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone.(You alone)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
And you got me just torn in between the two. (Torn in between the two)
'cause I really wanna be with you. (Really wanna be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (Telling me I should leave)
Leave you alone. (Alone)
Leave you alone. (Alone)

So many times I... (I was ready to go)
So many times I... (Had my foot out the door)
So many times I... (I thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man)
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.
'cause I keep fighting myself for you. (I don't know how much more I can take but I can't feel this way)
(You got me so torn)

Torn in between the two. (Oh yeah)
'cause I really wanna be with you. (I really wanna be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone. (But I don't know)
And you got me just torn in between the two. (Should I stay or should I go)
'cause I really wanna be with you. (I don't know)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (You alone)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone. (You alone)

And you got me just torn in between the two. (I'm torn in between the two)
'cause I really wanna be with you. (I really wanna be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (But I don't know)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.

And you got me just torn in between the two.
'cause I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.

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Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, Oooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you
But I know you won't be there

OOh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, by hurting you.

Somedays I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide, cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this
Oooh, Yeah

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
Just to hear your voice again
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

OOh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, Oooh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much
That I've missed you since
You've been away.
Oooh, It's dangerous
So out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

Will you ever understand
what I needed to know
Will you ever say
what I needed to hear
Will you ever do
what I needed you to

the reason

2009-02-03T01:12:00.002+08:00

Just because I don't cry, doesn't mean that I'm happy
Just because I don't care, doesn't mean that I won't
It's the things that you thought
But never have you asked anything
I'm just too tired to continue being your game
It's just like I have taken a ride to the moon and back
Nothing has been the same for a long time
But, it's not worth it to take the same ride twice
Especially you.
But, i guess you'll never get to know
And, that's what I hope for
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究竟你想什么但眼泪骗不了我
如果是命定恋人为何还要对我
如此这样残忍
记得你曾说过有个爱情迷宫
只要我们能够碰头就能天长地久
如果真的爱我就别管怎么传说
让自尊它无情捉弄
关什么永恒不永恒
我不要自己一个人
去面对未知的迷宫
眼看着幸福就在前头却无法到手
不要自己一个人无助的盲目去摸索
爱你我像个小偷
我可以装做不懂你不爱我
终于有了选择
我不是你的晴空
你的心不爱我
只能继续委屈
做她的替代品

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And it's back to this song again
time and time again, it's only me against the entire world
this time, i shan't wait
i will just take the plunge

the winner really do take it all

2009-02-02T16:39:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw the dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all
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Gain it, Lost it
I've never gotten it in the first place
just like you would never know
but then again, why should I care
I can't in te first place

Always Getting Over You

2009-02-02T01:13:00.003+08:00

How To Go About Doing this Quiz?
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Skid Row - I Remember You
WOW!

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Bullets For My Valentine - Waking The Demon
Ermm.........

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Jesse McCartney - Why Is Love So Hard To Find
WAHLAO!!!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
The Fray - You Found Me
There's only one thing I found in the song...

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Can't Let You Go - Jesse McCartney
Yeps, I can't let anything go!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Simple Plan - Love Is A Lie
I think I understand that...

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Jesse McCartney - Right Back In The Water
Right back where?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Secondhand Serenade - Let It Roll
O.O

WHAT IS 2+2?
Rihanna - Disturbia
Maths is disturbing?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Bullets For My Valentine - All These Things I Hate
Opps...

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You
Erm...

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
S CLub 7 - Say Goodbye
I wish...

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight
Okay, this is really too morbid.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Cab - Bounce
Bounce=happy?

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson - Superhuman
I totally agree!

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Mariah Carey ft. Brian McKnight - Whenever You Call
Oh, that's really nicely romantic!

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Amber Pacific - Gone So Young
If it ends tonight, then yah!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
T.I. - Whatever You Like
I agree to this too!!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The Academy Is... - Summer Hair=Forever Young
Of course we're all forever young!

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Keyshia Cole - Fallin' Out
With...?

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Jesse McCartney - Just Go
That's soothing to hear.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
Okay, I understand this too.

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Beyonce Knowles - Broken-Hearted Girl
That's true.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Secondhand Serenade - It's Not Over
True to heart also.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Simple Plan - Save You
So, I'm not?

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Avril Lavigne - Tomorrow
Yes, please.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
NeYo - Miss Independent
That's rather sad...

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Jesse McCartney - Anybody
I am not being too greedy, right?

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Jesse McCartney - Get Your Shine On
Okay, I don't understand this.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Angela Ammons - Always Getting Over You
Nor this.

DO GO TRY!!!

sometimes you gotta go through the pain to experience the joy

2009-02-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?
Do, Do you know how to patch up a wound?
Tell me,
Are Are Are Are you,
Are you patient, Understanding?
Cuz I might need some time to clear the hole in my heart and I
I've tried every remedy
And nothing seems to work for me
Baby, (baby)
This situation's driving me crazy
And I really wanna be your lady
But the one before you left me so

[Chorus]

Damaged, Damaged
Damaged, Damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is
Damaged, Damaged
So Damaged, (So Damaged)
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (Baby I gotta know)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (What you are gonna do?)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (Baby I gotta know)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (What you are gonna do?)

Do Do you got a first aid kit handy?
Do Do you know how to patch up a wound? Tell me,
Are Are Are Are you,
Are you patient, Understanding?
Cuz I might need some time to clear the hole in my heart and I
You try to gain my trust
Talking is not enough
Actions speak louder than words
You gotta show me something
My heart is missing some pieces
I need this puzzle put together again

[Chorus]

Damaged, Damaged
Damaged, Damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is
Damaged, Damaged
So Damaged(So Damaged)
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (Baby I gotta know)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (What you are gonna do?)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (Baby I gotta know)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it (What you are gonna do?)

Can you fix my H-E-A-R-T
Cuz it D-A-M-A-G-E-D
Can you fix my H-E-A-R-T
Tell me are you up for the challenge
Cuz my heart is

Damaged, (Damaged)
Damaged, (Damaged)
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is
Damaged, (Damaged)
So Damaged, (So Damaged)
And you can blame the one before

Damaged, (Damaged)
Damaged, (Damaged)
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is
Damaged, (Damaged)
So Damaged, (So Damaged)
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it

My heart is
Damaged,
Damaged,
Damaged.

My heart is
Damaged,
Damaged,
Damaged.

My heart is
Damaged,
Damaged,
Damaged.

My heart is
Damaged,
Damaged,
Damaged.

My heart is
Damaged.

what if you have to bid goodbye this instant

2009-02-01T01:56:00.002+08:00

This is for my people's who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high, we will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people's who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying, "I miss you"
But when we talked too

All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by

And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong that you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by

And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

This is for my people's who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high, we will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people's who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye, bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by

And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

If you had to bid good bye this instant, who would say it to? What else will you say?

For me, I'll just make it a silent goodbye.

she'll never know

2009-01-30T14:34:00.003+08:00

We're the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
But lately somethings changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside

Oh I'm so afraid to make that first move
Just a touch and we
Could cross the line
And everytime she's near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart knows
Hold her close

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside

What would she say
I wonder would she just turn away
Or would she promise me
That she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside

Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)
Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside
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Between the known and the unknown, there exist a thin line of breach. What we know, we'll always hold the knowledge close to us. But, what if sometimes, there are things which you don't want to know?
The unknown daunts, yet at the same time is a bliss. But, nonetheless, we yearn to know everything there is. Sometimes at the risk of our sanity. It's just another consequence we brought upon ourselves.

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Don't come any closer
Don't tell me it's over
Don't kiss me goodbye
Here we are, am I taking this too hard?
Don't say that it's easy
The hardest part is leaving
Don't you wonder why
Suddenly, we're all running out of time

mad

2009-01-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

it's my measure

2009-01-24T03:21:00.002+08:00

you're a part of me in all i am..
never been more in the dark
never been this scared
never was so uncertain of what to do or speak
never been so alone
never been without you
never had more than i could keep

an un-beating heart.
a body of cold blood.
a mind of nothingness.
it's hard to know that you can't do anything about anything at all.

im desperate im calling out ur name(can u hear me)
im faling i cant feel ur flame, its so cold and i
i wanna go home
wanna feel ur arms around me(can u hear me, save me)

不想懂得

2009-01-23T02:52:00.004+08:00

I need to stay strong.
There are many things which I have to do.
I need to be up running.
It's a requirement of mine.
I'm not sure anymore if I want to give up.
My life has been a tiring journey.
I constantly feel life draining out.
Maybe it's time to rest.
But, what will happen if I do.
Will everything still stay the same?
Or will everything change when I close my eyes.
How will it be after I close my eyes.
In split-second, you'll be gone.
And I'll be somewhere else.
Meeting new people has been my goal.
But, what if I have met my last?
Does it mean that nothing will happen anymore.
Or will it be a normal routine.
Can it be a sign to go back.
Just to find one that I've lost to time.
Then agian, time never roll back.
This time, I'll just walk past it.
Even though I know it's there.
I just don't want to know what happens.
It's just a step too far, too late.
You can't do anything about it either.

Friends are meant to be made and lost, made and yet lost all over again. As the vicious cycle turns my life topsy-turvy, all I can do, is wait it out. As patiently as I possibly can. No matter how much it throws my heart into turmoil.

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand