why do i love you (like i do)

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date: Sunday, April 02, 2006
time:4/02/2006 01:11:00 AM

Right. Now I made him angry again. It seems to be happening on a regular basis right? When was the last time I got pissed at him and didn't want to speak to him? When was the last time I was this petty? When did I demand such a thing? When was it when I really wanted to hang up and made an excuse to. God, I don't even remember doing some of these stuff. Fine, maybe you weren't trying to hang up or you didn't make an excuse to hang up, but you did. Yepps, to me you seems to have done that. Okay. I do hope that that IS going to be the ~~last~~, maybe there might be more, time I'm doing that whine-on-your-blog thing. But if this is getting me somewhere, I shall consider doing this more often. Maybe it's just going to make him pissed and ignore me? Lecture me again? Make me sad again? Make me cry into the night? To sleep? Heck, I don't want to care anymore right? Good. But hey, I really don't know okays? I really can't think. I'm like, retarded? Moron? Idiot? Or just plain stupid? Never mind. I'm not, really not, seriously angry at you alrights. just sometimes I feel you just simply don't understand and try to think that you do alright? In fact, many people think like this. And I KNOW. Heard many things. Said many too. But I know my limits alright? I'm not that supid fine? I just can't use my brainsthis way. I'm a freaking whole-brainer. Although now I'm more predominantly left-brained. I'm not that right-brained already. So I can't thinkg of creative ways. You just don't care do you? I know.

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