I think I'm happy, can? Without certain person(s) in my life, I can still be very very happy. Are you jealous? I hope not, for I do not have access to any alkali substances to neutralise that.













Then again, sometims I hope that I live in self-denial. Life seems much better there.

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坐在你的身边是种满足的体验
看你看的画面,过你过的时间
天也晴了,花也开了,微风也沉醉
虽然你不说话,却也早已万语千言
分分秒秒显的清澈又珍贵
只有你才能给我这种感觉
不管心多疲倦,梦想还有多远
有你陪伴一切都无所谓
我要陪你擦拭每个昨天,相片,日记,书签
有暖意慢慢浮现,我要用默默的体贴
让你睁开双眼,看见昨夜梦想都实现
我也愿意帮你打扫房间,把身体好好锻炼
好让你觉得安全,让你记得我的优点
无论任何时间,对我非常想念,非常想念

It's so true. When you see things from another persom's point of view, you do find the world a much more interesting place. And it does provide you with the joy and satisfaction of knowing another fellow homo sapien a step deeper.

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My prelim results are not as sucky as I had expected, though they are still extremely sucky nonetheless. Should I go coaching again? This reminds me that I have not finish my conversation with Ervin and Yuyuan. Well, I sort of have a slight craving for oreo cake and some coffee. Ironically, I can't stand bitter stuff. But, THE AROMA OF COFFEE JUST TEMPTS ME! I miss chocolate waffles and banana pratas and kaya toast and iced milk tea and chocolates and breakfast and sushi and subway cookies and snapple and ribena.

Well, I'm like not going to fulfil them or whatever because my prelims results just killed my appetite, not to the extent of me going to starve myself. Let's pray my english can manage a pass. I swear I'm going to plan some back-up plans for myself. Then do my best. Like what Wei Chee and XueXuan says, we hav got 6 weeks to brush up and just chiong everything.

I don't think I'm going to ka-jiao my emaths tys. I just need to pick out a few questions now and then to do. Priority shal be on geography? Of course and chem. I suddenly wish I can like lock myself with chemicals and work out all the wierd theoried myself. Maybe I get pass securities and sneak into some sulphuric acid making factory and watch the process. Shitness knows if I'm going to survive this week. I reckon that by the end of this week, I will feel like banging my head on a wall, hang myself, stab myself with knife, drink poison, drink detergent, starve myself, not drink water, jump down from my room, smash my computer, trip myself and fall on a sharp piece of glass, get run down by truck, etc.

Does the above paragraph make me feel as though my mind is fucked up? Well, my mind is as screwed as can be. Goodness knows what's in there anymore. Brain overworking, I feel. Shut down soon I need.

Now, let me think of how I'm going to answer my geog paper2 questions so that I can get at least 14-15 marks for each question as Mr. Gerald says. Every night study I shall go. I shall not complain even if it really do me no better. At least shujun shall also be there. She's my motivation. If everything goes on well, we shall start preparing during the long holidays, like make Huiting teach us bio.

Point to ponder: XueXuan says that only Ngee Ann Poly accepts students not offering bio for bio-med. Criteria for consideration is that L1B4 must be 15 and below. That reminds me that she told me before, somewhen at the start of the year when she asked me of my future path.

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退后

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道门都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情会一定带去

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好
过最美的爱情回忆里带去(待续)
(相信你我还会有开始
只因我们都没有错)

Don't this song coincide with the site.

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白色的风车
安静的纯真
真实的感觉
梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水
复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着
握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头
我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么
反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手
晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远

白色的风车
安静的纯真
真实的感觉
梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水
复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着
握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头
我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么
反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手
晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远

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