I can't. I'm unable to. It's just not me. Things are always better without me. It's always like this. That's why I hate going for mass gathering of people. I'm just not built for that. It's always nice to see people happy. But sometimes you just feel tired of trying to make them all happy. It's tiring to be the one standing aside, observing others, being happy. I think the decision I made two years ago has its own point and I should have stood by that decision. If I had but one dream, I would want the nights to be longer. At least it's dark and you don't have to see the things around you. For some reason, I like to sleep in total darkness, even though I'm afraid of the dark.

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