I have been tagged by DARREN to do this.Please read the rules first:
Each player starts off the game by giving 6 weird things about themselves.People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as stating the rules clearly.In the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1)I like to eavesdrop on other people's conversation.
2)I hate FBTs
3)I don't get sick easily so i try very hard to get sick every few days.
4)I virtually don't have a childhood.
5)I keep seeing things that I don't want to, like people acting gay etc.
6)I am extremely extremely afraid of heights.

The following 6 ppl are tagged:
1)Fiona
2)Seraphina
3)Shipei
4)Shujun
5)Fong Eng
6)Ying Min

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NANA~!!!!!


I don't know, I really have no idea. I'm like super confused! And I think from all the thoughts already! And, and, and, and I have no idea what I'm doing anymore!

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These two go so well with each other I think they are going to stay like this.

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As I listen to the song, I start to wonder how true it is. I've done too many things, so many bad, barely a few that can be counted as good, I hope. As I continue to wonder, I start to think about when I'm going to die, and how. Will my death be fast or slow and draggy. Will I die peacefully or will I die thinking and worrying about all those that I know during my living years. Will I die with people cursing me all their might or will there be people crying. If I died suddenly, will they even realise that I'm gone, forever. Will there be that impact in their hearts, should they chose not to show it? The future tense is nice to use. The future is unpredictable. A friend saw his close friend pass away at 24. Will I meet with the same thing, or will it be the people around me? I wonder, in this night.

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I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

Got it from Mummy's blog. Felt that this song describes my feelings now. After all, I still feeling the after effects of having my mind thrown into the outer space and back again.

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There was the Parents' Forum today. It was just basically meet-the-parents session at polytechnic level despite that wierd fanciful name. Was damn damn damn tired today, especially with sleeping late due to some stuffs. having to wake up at about eight this morning was really like a torture. Got real irritated by my parents. They didn't know where we were supposed to go despite the programme been sent to us like a few months ago. Luckily I took a look before I slept and had a rough idea. The talk at LSCT was, I admit, a bit too lengthy and quite dry. I think my mum was like bored and pissed that she had to sit there for so long. I bet she felt cold too since she was like wearing sleeveless and LT78 was always the coldest LT among all four. The buffet lunch wasn't that bad, but it was a bit worse then the time when we had the tea party session thing. Therefore, I can conclude that the menu did NOT change. Well, maybe it did, for the worse. My dad scolded my mum there because he asked her if she wanted to go for the lab-tours and I think she said no. And so, he snapped at her saying she should go see what I learn in school. Guess I'm usd to these kind of stuff already. So we missed the lab-tours as they wanted to have lunch, but I brought them up to where the Chemistry labs were. But, they were closed, the conversation shown below followed.

DAD: "just now the chemical engineering lab had tour"
ME: "that is for CBE mah"
DAD: "which course are you in?"
ME: "MBIO"
DAD: "then will you have a chance to study the chemical engineering thing?"
ME: *kept quite*

I don't think he realise after the two hour talk that CBE and MBIO are different courses. They are too into the MOE education thing already. My dad got angry at me because I didn't help him "queue" to speak to Ms. Teh. Like he was waiting to speak to Mr. Mak and my mum was just standing around showing no concern at all, being very arrogant at all. Well, I know that she looks down on me just because I'm in polytechnic, not in some JC where she can show off to her friends a.k.a. my kindergarden classmates' mums. Hell, they are in polytechnic too and their mums were like really excited and all. All my excitement just died even before I set foot out of the house. I bet they have no idea what I'm doing now. My mum only remotely refer to my area of study as science. Yeah, I know, I'm not an all-rounder, I'm not doing Arts, but I hate writing essays. Either I was too tired or that my luck was down due to my mood or maybe even a combination of both, I fell at the stairs to SIM. My knee bleed a little and my dad got all "kan jiong". To me, it's like, you don't even know what my career prospects are and all you care is that I take care of my body so that I can look nice and all. Did I mention, Ms. Teh had to ask him what other area of concerns he had regarding me. All the other conversations I managed to hear about were of parents asking the lecturers where they kids can go to after graduation and sorts. Was too darn pissed to even do anything for the entire day. Well, maybe I should go think about how to answer my dad's question of whether I would hae the chance to take CBE one of these years, just in case any retards haven't realise that I still have NOT answer that question from earlier yet.

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As Fiona changed her blog address, I realised that I have not gone to YuYuan's blog for a long time. With that notion in mind, I made myself go visit his blog and tagged there, a first in a long time.

yingli: i just realise u just wrote my name for my link...=/
yingli: *hugs* jiaYOU!!!!=)
ME . yingli `: what is up man?
yingli: dun worry..im not gonna die or dissapear frm e face of this world lah..just realised tt i haven dropped by here e LONGEST time ever possible=(
yingli: hai~
ME . yingli `: how do you know? perhaps D-day is tomorrow?
yingli: if tml is d-day,then we r ALL gonna dissappear..not just mi..=)

And, I realised that, if I had walked a little faster home, not dilly-dally so much, managed my time better and such, I would have the time to visit everybody's blogs and know how they are doing. Because of YuYuan, I realised that friendship can really be that weak. I just haven't gone to his blog for perhaps, two months, and when I read his posts again, they seemed to show signs that he has grown, matured.

I'm once again brought back to my thoughts of D-day. What if tomorrow a perosn close to me is gone, what would I do? What would happen to me? If the next day is D-day, I wonder what's the last thing on everybody's mind.

But for me, maybe I don't have to wait till D-day. Maybe by the end of the year, I would have forgotten about my past almost completely. My memory seems to be deteriorating at an alarming rate. I can no longer differentiate left and right properly anymore. Therefore, I have an urge. An urge to do my ILUs right now, for everybody I loved and hold dearly to. For those who had been by my side for all these times.

I was realised that I haven't forgotten what Woei Tang once said about a year ago. "When you're in your teens, you see your elders dying. However, when you're 20, it's your friends and those around you passing on." It does sound morbid, but true. True enough that it strikes that bit of fear in me as I realised that I put on another eatra year, inching yet another step closer to the dreaded 20. Will I live to the people around me for another time, or is there simply not enough time? That's a dangerous unknown, a paradox between wanting somebody to tell me and yet afraid to find out.






I wonder, what's the value of evaluation on this world.

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Vitamin H is an essential vitamin to your body. It works extremely well against sadness and stress. Vitamin H is a very precious resource since it cannot be found in the Earth's surface. This makes vitamin H very rare, especially in Asian countries. And, because of this, many people around the world suffer from vitamin H deficiency. It is sad to see that though many people possess vitamin H, they have second thoughts of taking it out and passing them around. I need my vitamin H, somebody.





P.S.: There sis seriously no need for every reader to understand my gibberish.

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Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all menYou are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

That is so cool.

You Are 40% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

The result is kind of upsetting. Too optimistic for me, I think.

You Probably Look Your Age (At Least!)

You don't really respect your body, and that may catch up with you over time.Relax a little and try to take care of yourself. If not, you'll have a lot of botox in your future.

I really don't look old I guess.

You Are 57% Grown Up, 43% Kid

You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature.You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

Maybe I can call for a celebration for that.

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is passionate and physical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

This sounds so stressful.

You Are 48% Weirdo

You're definitely quite strange, but you can act like a normal person when you have to.(But just because you can act normally, it certainly doesn't mean you want to!)You have normal aspects to your personality... but you usually don't choose to emphasize them.

Great, I'm more wierd than abnormal.

Your Toes Should Be Blue

You're a little out there, but that means you take guys to a place that's out of this world! Your ideal guy: Zany, hilarious, and totally unpredictable. Stay away from: Anyone who has to get up for work in the morning

Great idea for my next purchase don't you think?

Your Depression Level: 48%

You seem to have mild depression.A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment.If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help.

Should I feel happy that I predicted it or should I feel sad that I'm depressed?

There's a 76% Chance That You Need Therapy

You almost certainly need therapy. And there's nothing wrong with that.Lately life has not been easy for you. Why not let a therapist help you sort things out?

Erm, yay-ness?

Guys Think You're Easy to Be With... But Not Easy

You're definitely a flirt - and a good one.But you also know that you shouldn't make a move on any cute guy who passes by.You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you.That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package.

This just about threw my head away.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines. You should major in: MarketingPsychologyDesginCognitive Science EconomicsPhotography

I hope this will suffice.

You Are 100% Pure

You're so pure ... you make a nun look like a whore! There's a lot of life's dark side left for you to experience... if you want to.

That's pretty cute.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

Selfish.

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

This is IRONIC!

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I think, that, the effects of the lack of attention for the first fifteen years of my life, has come to huaunt me. Right. Let me go take cover and prepare myself for the impending war now.

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I think that it's retribution or something, but, pain is all I can feel now. I tore a piece of skin from my finger and I still have no idea why I did that. Mummy says it's midnight madness, but, I don't have midnight madness and I don't feel at all mad. Not even remotely close. Second thing, my stomach hurts, again. Maybe I should go see a doctor like Tse Ing. Thoughts of my projects just keep rawling into my brain, reminding me I don't have the damned time for it. All those long waits in clinics and hospitals, it's like string of flesh and blood dangling on a earring. That's the best I can describe a queue okay? That's like how bad my english is, so, better don't trouble yourself by trying to correct me or anything.

The ice-cream making session turns out to be quite alright, though it wasn't really how I thought it would be like. We used that freezer machine thing on which we need to 'cook' our ice-cream with. Anyway, The Daily Scoop at Sunset Way provides good ice-cream. I want to try their Lychee Martini, lychee juice with vodka, churned not stirred. That's the description anyway, sounds pretty cool don't you think? I can't remember what I got last time. And this time, since I was the last one to try out the ice-cream machine, I didn't get another cup. Not to mention that Simply Chocolate was simply filling, made me feel like I overate. Thank God for the walk out, if not I would probably have forgo my lunch. Ate at Sumo House again, it's become the standard place to eat when I'm going home from school or something. Accessible, food's nice and price's right. Nice place as a whole.

Did I mention, I don't feel like eating anymore fast-food since Tuesday, all of them offer the same type of food. However, if the place is Kobayashi, Yoshinoya or Subway, I think I should be alright. Kind of missed Subway's sandwiches anyway. Been a long time since I last ate, not so about the cookies though. The four cookies which I had to finish has left some impact in both my stomach and my brain.

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