why do i love you (like i do)

title: Today is the day
date: Wednesday, September 03, 2008
time:9/03/2008 04:55:00 PM

I can't believe that I just nearly cried in the clubhouse. If anyone of them or the GLs came in, it'll be super embarrassing can? I'm not going to say what happen, but just leaving at I had alot of thoughts rushing through my head. Each overwhelming another, plus, I was listening to several emo songs. My hand is still trembling from the effort to hold back my tears.

Sidenote: I'm waiting for Ter Soon to come back. I brought the forms already but he's missing! Okay, so are the rest of them. Hopefully they are already having de-brief or clearing up because it's already like 1 hour late.

Back to my entry.
I know there are so many things that I don't know. But then again, nobody ever bother telling me anything at all. It's quite a shock to find out about things on your own, especially when you're alone and the feeling of such discovery is so overwhelming that you can't control your emotions. But to act the usual, I need to hide and swallow everything inside. There have never been a situation where I can vent out my frustration upon my discoveries, maybe until now, that I'm at a legal age of drinking. I;m still not feeling better.
And a note to self, talking to Lionel at such times can actually be a new experience. Because he is such a kid, there is that innocence that I have long lost, but in him I can still find. It's kind of, refreshing I would call it, I guess.

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