Thank goodness, I'm starting to fall ill. This shows that I'm still vaguely normal.




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I can't believe that I'll be spending one blog-post on school stuff.


Anyway, there's the NP GREEN BAZAAR on WEDNESDAY and THURSDAY at the ATRIUM! At the same time, TICKET COLLECTION for NP@45 PARTY is also available at the ATRIUM on BOTH DAYS.

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I've got so much to say, to whine about. But, this isn't the proper place to say it out. My frustrations, i will keep inside of me. Bad feelings, shoo, go back in!



You really can't expect your friends to stay with you forever, can you? They have their own lives to live, their goals to meet. They aren't really going to not go anywhere right?






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I guess I should've known better,
to believe I'm a lucky chain, Oh.
I lent my heart out forever,
and finally learned each other's names.

I tell myself, "this time it's different."
No goodbyes, cause eyes can't bear to say it.
"I'll never survive on one that's coming",
If I stay, Ooh!

Just Walk Away! Ooh, and don't look back.
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad.
You know I'm strong, but I can't take that.
Before It's too late. Oh, just Walk Away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) Ooh, just Walk Away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk) Away-aye-aye, yeah.

I really wish I could blame you, but I know
That it's no one's fault. No, No. No, No
Cinderella with no shoe, and
the prince that doesn't know he's lost.
He says that her face is so familiar, and
Goodbye with just the same old song.
But this time I will not surrender!
'Cause I'm gone, Ooh, yeah!

Just Walk Away! Ooh, and don't look back.
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad.
You know I'm strong, but I can't take that.
Before It's too late. Oh, just Walk Away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) Ooh, just Walk Away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk) Away-aye-aye, yeah.

Ooh, I've got to let it go.
Start protecting my heart and soul.
Cause I don't think I'll survive a goodbye again.
Not again!

Just Walk Away! Ooh, and don't look back.
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad.
You know I'm strong, but I can't take that.
Before It's too late. (Before It's Too Late!)
Oh, just Walk Away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) Walk Away, Walk Away, yeah!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away!) Walk Away, Walk Away, All right!
(Walk Away, Walk Away, Yeah, Walk Away!) Walk Away, Walk Away.
(Oh, Walk, Walk, Walk Away!) Walk Away, Walk Away, Ooh..
Ooh..



A heartfelt song to me. Especially today. On another note, am really happy that everything worked out right in the end, at least the most important thing of all!

Went with Michelle, Jehanne, Zahidah, Asyraf, Samuel, Ter Soon, Hong Wei, Xiao Wei, Yong Jin, Shawn and Yew Jia to catch High School Musical 3 after school, as part of celebration for Asyraf's birthday. Managed to trick him into letting us get a bag for him. That part was done amazingly, but the dress thing was for real okay. As for the bag thing, it's optional, nonetheless a cool idea. Got the halloween popcorn combo and brought the jack-o-lantern home. It's darn cute please. Maybe I can bring it to school someday. But first, I really want to get that two-way dress from This Fashion, that butterfly one. Edah, let's go get it together and wear to school together!

Sidenote: I hope things will stay this way, the way I want it to be. I believe that I can do it, that I'll be able to handle all these. Because, now, I know that I'm not alone. This time, I have you with me, on this tough journey ahead. BFF(e), I will put my trust in you that you'll keep your promise and not go anywhere. I will hold on and make the past two months worthwhile, for I treasure it. Friends, are not something that can be forgotten, that I didn't tell you.

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Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally getting’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you
And I got over you
And I got over you

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you

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I'm so pissed off I don't even know what I can't do. Sometimes I feel like giving up, sometimes I feel I can't continue. Do you even know how much pressure you're capable of inserting? Maybe it's time for another anger management course.


edit:
I'm happy now. I'm glad I got my courage up and clear things up with you. It sure felt good to hear what you've got to say, and let you catch a glimpse of my life. Like I said, I'll cherish you. Keep good of your agreements and promises too okay! You're the first and probably only person whom I will tell such things to. I'm really happy I didn't give up in the end, despite the many attempts to. It sure is a peculiar situation, but I'll remember what I've learnt, from you, from this. Thanks xxxxx, you really made my day, even though I was crying while talking to you. But no worries for you brought the smile back up already!

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其实我的安静有迹可寻
只是你不太留心而已
如果说 两个人在一起
比一个人孤寂
爱会不会过期
渐渐你成为我部落格里
被别人阅览着的心情
我听说 留言的人会有个面具
那个匿名的 会不会就是你
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法 和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了她
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢

渐渐你成为我部落格里
被别人阅览着的心情
我听说 留言的人会有个面具
那个匿名的 会不会就是你
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法 和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了她
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法 和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了他
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢

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I'm feeling the effects of not eating for the whole day and not having enough sleep. My stomach feels super weird, like there's hot lava inside and churning.

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"Only the strong survive"

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She gave too much of her love away that her heart ache with the lack of it.

P.S.: The things that are happening to me? They are IMBA SHIT!
P.S.: But, that's they way are I guess.



Add-on: The things I hate, revolve around me. Still, I can find a reason to smile. So smile today people, just for yourself and what you've been through.=)

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This is what I call music therapy.

BUBBLE WRAP - MCFLY
I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you hurt,
The people that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

I'm a little dazed and confused,
But life's a bitch and so are you,
All my days have turned into nights,
Cos living without, without, without you in my life,
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?

Cos this is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

Yeah!
Turn on the radio honey,
Cos every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
And this one i dedicate!

Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby,
You can never talk to me,
You're unable to communicate!

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised...

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

This is Goodbye.



KIDNAP MY HEART - THE CLICK FIVE
Hey girl, what's your name I think I caught you looking my way
Do you wanna know how to get me of to your own
Weekends work the best I pick the place you do the rest
Hey now don't be shy but you got to keep me in line
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
But you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
Take me with you
Kidnap my heart
Make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Ain't very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

Can you get me up more
Fun that I can ever dream of
Could you tie me down
Can you keep me hanging around
I don't wanna be into keep you company
Put your hand in mine got to hold on top of the ride
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
But you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
Take me with you
Kidnap my heart
Make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Ain't very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

You've got to hold me tighter
Cause I'm a real fighter
Don't tear us apart
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
But you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
Take me with you
Kidnap my heart
Make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Ain't very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

Kidnap my heart
Kidnap my heart



CRY - RIHANNA
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cuz I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life



ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE - GUY SEBASTIAN
It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here

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Today had been a really fruitful day.

- Got to know more about myself and the image I portray in front of the GLs
- Got to know some of the GLs better
- Let the GLs get to know me more? (They still have the impression that I'm unfriendly)
- Had my meals on time and in appropriate propotions.
- Had lots of people accompanying me for dinner
- Had much laughters for the day


I hope everyday would be as fruitful as today, be it for fun or for work. May everyday be laughter-filled and stress-free!

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I have realised that my blog is kind of screwed up. Been dabbling quite alot with Ethan's blog for the past few after its opening. Well, I was asked to help so, yeah. Solved a major problem with the blog in 9 hours the other day and I need to find out what's with Imeem. It's not exclusive help for Ethan, I'm pretty fed-up by it too everytime I arrive at the blog. Can't even listen to a song properly. Need to wake up at like around 7 later? But I'm still here at this unearthly hour.

On the other hand, I'm going for yet another camp next weekend! Pretty excited but still abit scared because I have no idea what's in store and who is confirmed going. I hope and pray that yyy yyyy is going despite everything so I can have a partner!
And Ethan, if you're reading this now, I shall tell you again that I haven't gone to alot of camps this holiday! I mean, it's only two camps! If I went for that trip too, then I'll really be over okay! But these two camps, they are pretty much of the same agenda, bonding and leadership! So don't fret, nothing much is going to happen to me. Perhaps other than screaming myself hoarse from doing high elements. And maybe from being 'high'!

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HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!




and



SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!


It's a happy day. And how come I'm working not celebrating?

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