why do i love you (like i do)

title: 不想懂得
date: Friday, January 23, 2009
time:1/23/2009 02:52:00 AM

I need to stay strong.
There are many things which I have to do.
I need to be up running.
It's a requirement of mine.
I'm not sure anymore if I want to give up.
My life has been a tiring journey.
I constantly feel life draining out.
Maybe it's time to rest.
But, what will happen if I do.
Will everything still stay the same?
Or will everything change when I close my eyes.
How will it be after I close my eyes.
In split-second, you'll be gone.
And I'll be somewhere else.
Meeting new people has been my goal.
But, what if I have met my last?
Does it mean that nothing will happen anymore.
Or will it be a normal routine.
Can it be a sign to go back.
Just to find one that I've lost to time.
Then agian, time never roll back.
This time, I'll just walk past it.
Even though I know it's there.
I just don't want to know what happens.
It's just a step too far, too late.
You can't do anything about it either.

Friends are meant to be made and lost, made and yet lost all over again. As the vicious cycle turns my life topsy-turvy, all I can do, is wait it out. As patiently as I possibly can. No matter how much it throws my heart into turmoil.

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand

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