why do i love you (like i do)

title: with age
date: Thursday, January 01, 2009
time:1/01/2009 04:31:00 PM

It's now year 2009, but to me, it still feels like year 2008, with all the things and stuffs. My year-ends have never been this bad, and my year-starts have made me feel so horrible. Not the booze, but the atmosphere and everything.

Year 2008 has been a quick year. Starting off on a light happy note, slowly snowballing with climax after climax, incidents after incidents right till the end. It's basically it's a year of learning and more learning. About others, about inter-personal relationships, about impacts, etc.

Things I learnt

How to effectively piss people off
How to effectively piss myself off
How to deal with shits
How to differentiate people
What to do when you're at a total loss
Who to ask what
How to read people
What NOT to do with my life
How to get up when I fall

And much, much more. Having been through so much, surely one can't expect me to learn only so little right? But, the ultimate last and first question of the years, is what can I do about my life!

The year has finally pass, but things are still not settled. The things that I know, the things that I don't. The things that I see coming, the things that will come. But, the new year is already here playing in the rain puddles and time is running out for me to settle my stuffs and get some answers.

2009 wish-list

Answers to my questions
Easier life
Lesser things to fret over
A better heart
More time

A short list, but thinking hard, it seems really difficult to fulfill. I guess it's all up to me. To decide, to ensure, to hope, to believe, to trust, to carry on.

Won't you hold my hand and take me through
Won't you let me feel myself
Won't you even care to help me

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

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