why do i love you (like i do)

title: For Jordan.The Cranes
date: Thursday, February 12, 2009
time:2/12/2009 04:33:00 AM

A week has passed. A new day has arrived. The sun will be up soon. We'll find a brand new world. But a world without you, is not a world we want to be in.

Second night in running that I haven't slept. Third day in running that I have came to the hospital. I feel tired, but where can I rest my soul? Not with one of my good friends in SICU. Shi Li is currently sleeping beside me. Dad is sleeping in the Visitors' lounge and Mum is inside with Jordan. Folding paper cranes had always been the most frustrating job that I can ever do. Not because I lack the patience, but because of the fact that I have sweaty palms. Either that or super dry&uncomfortable hands to work with. But the numerous cranes I'm doing now, all hold a hope. A hope that will in turn represent each&every hope that all of us possess. Staying over in the hospital in company of ShiLi, is a choice I made. The wait in the dark solitude of my own room is far too overwhelming, as I had experienced the night before. The guilt, the feeling of loss, the feeling of helplessness , they knocked on my conscience one by one. Being the one who spreads all the news, I can't help feeling bad, for I'll have to be the one to break everything to everybody.
Tears had gone far. But I believe, a new batch will start again. However, for all of us, when the sun rises up again, it'll be yet another day, of waiting, of anxiety. Lord, we desperately need your strength to help us pull through it all. Lord, if for all my tears you can bring strength to each&everyone of us waiting for Jordan to wake up, please do take them all. We wish for nothing more than for him to wake up and be okay.

0830: Nerve Stimulus test
Donors can make their way down to NUH to donate blood&platelets!
1000-1100: Send for major operation

Will update again when the morning comes. Currently still folding paper cranes. And also asking for blood donors&platelet donors!

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