I wonder,

what is it that makes me cry in the middle of the night.
what is it that makes me cry all of a sudden.
what is it that makes me smile at random.
what is it that makes me smile at nothing.
what it is that makes me smile when i can't.
what is it that makes me feel excited for everyday.
what is it that makes me dread the day's end.
what is it that makes me happy&sad at the same time.
what is it that makes me feel so lost.

Sometimes, I think I know

the answer.
the question.
the thoughts.
the random things.
the events.
the way everything happens.
the life I'm living.

But, I've failed to find what I want in life.
But, I've found something to help me.

Someone, for that matter.
And I'm glad I did it early.

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