; the LAST promise

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First off, I cant keep a promise
I'm no one to count on at all
Add on that I'm a coward
Too scared to return your call

But you don't care
You keep sticking around
While I'm actin a clown
You're bigger
Than me

Cuz you're still here
Your feet stuck to the ground
Despite how silly it sounds
You're bigger
Than me

It's known that I'm a liar
Often I'm blacker than white
Add on my uncanny ego
No ones as humbled than I

But you don't care
You keep sticking around
While I'm actin a clown
You're bigger
Than me

Cuz you're still here
Your feet stuck to the ground

Despite how silly it sounds
You're bigger
Than me

All the messed up things I do
Yeah I swear I'll make them up to you
Before you're go and have enough
Just let me make it better
Ill try and make them up
Ill try and make them up to you
Oh yeah
(I'll make them up to you oh yeah)

But you don't care
You keep sticking around
While I'm actin a clown
You're bigger
Than me
Cuz you're still here
Your feet stuck to the ground
Despite how silly it sounds
You're bigger
Than me
Just bigger
Than me

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Sometimes,




I wonder,


What.






















Exactly am I?






如果可以恨你
全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你
还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麽伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

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Because I'm spoilt rotten.
I want you.
Only you.

I'm not going to give you away.
Coz you found me.
That's WHY!











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Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

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Just because Ying Li doesn't cannot fail nor fall.
Just because Ying Li cannot doesn't cry.
It doesn't mean that Ying Li wouldn't ever.

I really feel that Ying Li, is just a puppet. Prove me wrong? I think not.








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I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might

Maybe, love maybe


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But, maybe, it's just another thing that's too good to be true.




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I failed to remember that for every good thing that happened to me, I need to give something back in return. But, why does it always have to clash with this issue? It happened before&I thought that it's for me when the second time appeared. Still, I had to give it up for another thing else.











Question of the day, should I be selfish or not? On a second thought, perhaps it's not going to matter is I should be selfish. Maybe, it's a way to tell me to give it up entirely. Including my pursuit to simple, pure happiness. My life, is not meant to be a happy one, not since the day I came to Earth.

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